One
I walked outside and sat on
the steps. I tried to block out the sounds of Ike, Tay and Zac practicing
MMMBop downstairs. I was so sick of that song.
"Waaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!"
There goes Zoë. Crying again. Arrrgggghhhh. I had to get out of here. I stood
up and looked around. I had no friends, between touring with Ike, Tay and Zac
and being homeschooled, you didn't come up with much. Walk. Walks were good. I
started down our street, wandering aimlessly. After a little while, I looked
down at my watch, It seemed like it had only been minutes, but it had been two
hours! I better get back. I sighed and turned to walk home.
Two
When I got home, Avie was
outside with her little friend, Jenn. How did she manage to get friends? I
walked on. Mack and Zac were watching cartoons. Lord, I was more mature than
those two. Taylor was on the phone with one of the chicks he had a crush on.
Isaac was-wait, where was he? Probably on a date. And Zoë? Probably being
fussed over by Mom and Dad. I walked into their room. Yep. I was absolutely
right. I sat down on the bed.
"Jess," Mom said,
"hand me a diaper." I picked one up and gave it to her. So that’s it.
Gone for two whole hours and nobody even noticed. She changed Zoë's diaper and
looked over at me.
"Honey? Will you watch
Zoë for awhile?"
"Sure." She
handed her to me and smiled.
"Thanks." I
walked away muttering, "Yeah, sure. Only notice me when you want
something."
Three
Little Zoë seemed to be the
only one who paid attention to me. When nobody could get her to stop crying,
they gave her to me. I could always make her stop crying. I walked into the
living room and sat down. Zac looked at me briefly, then turned back to Mack. I
sighed. That was the problem. I was smack dab n the middle. I didn't fit in
anywhere. I wasn't part of the band and I wasn't a cute little kid anymore. Zoë
tugged my hair impatiently. I looked down at her.
"Hey," I said,
laughing. She laughed too. Zac gave me a look. I ignored him. He's very rude.
Four
A few hours later, Mom had
taken Zoë back and forgotten me again.
I wandered around until I ended up in Isaac, Taylor, and Zac's room. I
looked around. My eyes settled on Tay's laptop. Bingo! I grabbed it and hurried
back to mine and Avery's room. I shut and locked the door. She would live. I
logged on AOL as JessG10, My screen name. (AN. I have no idea if this is her
real screen name or not! If someone out there has it, I'm sorry and please
don't IM them!) I really didn't have a
buddy list. Like I said, no friends, or rather buddies. But I went in a Hanson
chat, (I always do for fun) and there was this girl with the screen name
TulsaChick10. Maybe she lived here. Fat chance, but ya never know! I started
talking to her and she was from Tulsa! And she was 11! She does like, though. Oh,
well, I can overlook that! And she lives the next street over! This was getting
better by the minute!
Five
A few weeks later, Angie
and I had met. That's her real name. We were the best of friends. We did
everything together. Well, on the Fourth of July, my family always has this
huge picnic and we have a cookout and watch the fireworks. Well, this year, Mom
let me invite Angie. Well, she came over and we were having a great time. We
were in the backyard with Zac messing around. Then, Mom called me to come get
the lemonade.
"Okay," I called.
'I'll be back," I said to Angie. She nodded, smiling and left. I grabbed
the lemonade from Mom and headed back to the yard. I went through the gate,
smiling my head off. I stopped as soon as I saw them. Zac and practically the
only friend I ever had were sitting there. Kissing.
Six
My mouth dropped open. I
let the pitcher drop to the ground, making a big crash. They stopped and looked
up. I turned and ran down the sidewalk. I ran and ran, tears flooding my eyes.
My vision blurred with tears, but I kept running. This was how it always was.
All my friends ended up kissing one of my stupid brothers. That's really why I
had no friends. I heard footsteps behind me, but I kept going.
"Jessie!" Angie
called. "Jess! Wait!" I kept running. She stopped. But I heard more
footsteps. Heavier. Faster. Zac.
"Jessica! Wait!"
he called. I still didn't stop. But he was faster than me, and he caught up to
me. He grabbed my shirt. "Wait." I spun around to face him, flaming
mad.
"Why?!?!?! So you can
tell me it didn’t mean anything like you always do?!?!?! Like you did with all
my other friends?!?!?! Huh?!?! Is that why I should wait!?!?!?" I was mad
now. More than I had ever been before. Through my tears, I could see Angie watching
us.
"No!" he
returned. "So I can tell you to lighten up and that it didn’t mean
any--"
"I knew it! You
couldn't not say it! I knew it!" I cried. I was seeing red. "See!
Just like always! 'It doesn't mean anything, Jessica!' Like you always
say!"
"No!" he said
grabbing my shoulders. I glared at him.
"I hate you!" I
shouted. "Get away from me!" I tried to wriggle free of his grasp,
but he was too strong. I slapped him. Hard. He let go of me and put his hand to
his face. I turned and ran. When I got to the park, I sat down on the bench and
cried and cried and cried. Nobody cared. Nobody cared.
Seven
I sat there forever. It got
dark. I didn’t care. I was just sitting there, hurting, when I heard my name.
"Jessica!' I looked
up. It was Mom. So, she finally figured out I was gone and had enough heart to
look for me. And she cared enough not to bring anyone with her. I looked back
down. She sat next to me.
"Zac and Angie were
really upset. You know that, don't you?" I didn't answer She sighed.
"Come on Jess. Talk to me." I couldn't help it. All of a sudden, I
just blew up.
"Oh, so it's all about
them, isn't it?!?! Who cares about Jessica? It's all about everybody
else!" I was standing up now, and I started to run. She caught up to me
and grabbed me.
"Jessie! No, it's not
all about them! It's about you! It's okay." I started to cry and she
hugged me. I cried and cried and cried into her.
I cried and cried. We must
have stood there for 20 minutes. Finally, I felt like I couldn't cry anymore. I
stood back and wiped my eye.
" Sorry," I said
quietly.
"Oh, Jessie. It's
okay. It doesn't matter." I smiled gratefully. "Come on," she
said. "We better get going. It's late."
"Okay." We got in
the car and drove away.
Eight
When we got home,
everything and everyone was inside. I looked down at my watch. Gosh, it had
been 1:00 when…it happened. Now it was 8:00. I jumped out of the car and
hurried in the house. Isaac and Taylor were on the couch. They looked at me and
I could tell they were dying to know what happened. I paid absolutely no
attention to them. Upstairs, I went to my room. Good. Avery wasn't there. I sat
down on my bed and took out my book and walkman. Then I realized I was
starving. I hurried downstairs and made myself a sandwich. I grabbed a soda and
went back upstairs. Where was Zac? I was almost sure that I would've-oh, no.
There he was. Blocking my door. Okay, I thought. Play it cool, Jessie. Play it
cool. I walked up to the door.
"Excuse me," I
said casually. "You're in my way."
"Now," he said.
"You hafta listen to me."
"No I don't." I
pushed my way past him and sat down on my bed. I put on my headphones and the
Backstreet Boys blasted into my ears. I started to read my book and eat my
sandwich. Zac looked really mad.
"Jessica?" he
asked. "Listen." I looked up, pretending to be surprised.
"I thought I heard
something. Guess not." He tried again and I returned with: "What was
that? Must've been a fly." He was really mad.
"Jessica!
Listen!" I started humming along with the song and ignored him. Then, he
got really mad and blew up everywhere!
"Jessica Grace Hanson!
Listen to me!" I giggled, dropping everything on my bed and running out of
the room. He chased me into the living room. I jumped between Ike and Tay, so
he couldn't get me. Zac looked really mad, and Ike and Tay looked really
confused.
Nine
"Jessie? What did you
do to him?" Taylor asked. Oh you have some nerve, Taylor Hanson. I stood
up.
"Oh, buddy. Do you
have some nerve! What did I do to him????? Well, I must have done a lot
since he repeatedly ruins my life! God have some freakin' mercy!" I shook
my head. "God have mercy!" They were all staring at me.
"WHAT?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?"
I screamed and ran out the door, letting it slam behind me. They would just
weasel it out of Zac, but I didn't care. I climbed into the treehouse.
"Idiots," I
muttered.
"Yeah, I guess we
are." I looked up.
"What do you want
Angie?" She sat down.
"I just um…wanted to
talk."
"Nothing to talk
about."
"C'mon Jess. I'm
really sorry. I didn't know what I was thinking. I-it just sort of
happened."
"Really? I mean, was
it his idea? 'Cause that's okay 'cause he's just rude and mean and I can kill
him." She nodded shyly.
"Yeah, I guess
so." I smiled. She smiled back. I
reached over and hugged her.
"Zac?" Taylor
asked. "WHAT DID YOU DO?!?!?!?!?!?"
"Nothing, nothing. I
dunno why she's so mad."
"Liar, liar pants on
fire!" Avery shrieked from here hiding place behind the couch. Zac grabbed
her and slapped his hand over her mouth. She giggled and tried to pull his hand
off her mouth. After a few attempts, she succeeded.
"You kissed
Angie!!!!!"
Ten
"Zac!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Isaac and Taylor yelled.
"What?" he asked
innocently.
"Are you that
stupid?" Isaac asked,
"Whaddya mean?"
"God, Zac! How
retarded do ya hafta be?"
"I'm not retarded!"
"Yes, you are!"
Isaac cut in. "You kiss her best friend and you don't expect her to be
mad? Would you like it if she kissed your best friend?" Avery giggled.
"Get outta here
squirt," Zac said angrily. She ran from the room, laughing like crazy.
"It would be kinda
funny…"
"Zac, come on. You
would throw fire if she did that and you know it!"
"Well…. well….
well…you…um…you suck!" Zac concluded lamely and ran outside.
Eleven
Angie and I sat in the
treehouse, talking.
"Hey!" Angie
said. "Do you think your mom would let you spend the night? 'Cause it is
kind of late."
"I dunno," I
said. "But I can ask. C'mon, let's go!" The two of us ran towards the
house. Suddenly, I ran into something.
"Hey!"
"Huh? Zac? What are
you doing?"
"None of your
beeswax."
"Well, then," I
said, and we ran into the house.
Twelve
I burst into the door
breathlessly, followed by Angie. Nobody in the living room. We moved onto the
kitchen. Mom was there, loading the dishwasher.
"Jessie!" she
said, turning around. "And….Angie."
"Mom?" I asked.
"Can I go to Angie house and spend the night? Please?" Mrs. Hanson
looked a little peeved. (I loooove that word! Peeved! Lol.)
"Jess, it's late. I
don't know if you should. And Angie's parents…."
"Oh, it's okay, Mrs.
Hanson. My parents said I could have a friend today." Mrs. Hanson looked
skeptical.
"Well, okay. Go get
your things together."
"Thanks Mom!" I
cried, throwing her arms around her. "C'mon Angie! Let's go!" We ran
up the stairs, and I nearly knocked Taylor over.
"Oh, sorry, Tay."
"It's okay. But what
are you so happy about? And why is Angie here? I thought that-"
"Don't even say it,
Taylor. Don't you even dare Jordan Taylor Hanson. I'll punch your nose
in," I called over my shoulder, running down the hall with Angie.
"Well then,"
Taylor said to himself, heading downstairs. "Note to self: Don't get in
fight with my little sister." He shrugged and slouched on the couch.
Thirteen
Zac walked the rest of the
way to the treehouse. They were so mean! Gosh, it was just a mistake! Plus,
Jessie overreacted way too much! She got mad if somebody looked at her the
wrong way! But I guess that was pretty bad… I dunno. It's not like I've done it
that many times. And besides, it's not my fault she doesn't have any friends.
Maybe she should be more social. Like, like…Avery! She and Mack have plenty of
friends. But then again, there are more 5 and 8-year-olds than 11-year-olds….
but they don't hafta live in this neighborhood. I dunno. She's weird.
Fourteen
We walked down the hall and
into the room I shared with Avery. I pulled out my bag. I opened my drawer and
started throwing things in it.
"I can't believe my
mom actually said yes!" I exclaimed.
"I know!" Angie
replied.
"So," I said.
"What should we do tomorrow?"
"I was thinking the
mall." I smiled.
"Great!" I threw
some more things in my bag and zipped it up. "Done. Come on." She
smiled and we walked down the stairs, ignoring Tay, who was on the couch.
"We're leaving,
Mom!"
"Okay!" And we
left.
That night, Angie and I spent all night giggling over all guys we could think of besides my brothers, a bowl of popcorn (alright, more than one, and I guess some candy and junk food too!), and a mile-high stack of movies. We didn’t really go to sleep until 8:00 in the morning! Apparently, Angie’s mom figured we would stay up till all hours, so she let us sleep till 1:00. When we did finally roll out of bed, we got dressed and went to the mall. Mrs. Clane (AN. Did I say their last name already?? I can’t find it anywhere and I don’t think so!!) asked if I should call my parents and tell them I’d probably be there for another night, and I lied and said no because they only lived about a street over! It wasn’t a big deal. Mrs. Clane treated us to a movie and dinner afterwards. We were so tired that we went home and fell right asleep in front of the TV. I didn’t think another thing of my family until a shrill ring woke us up about two and a half hours after we got home and fell asleep.
Sixteen
Mrs. Clane hurried groggily out of bed to answer the high-pitched ringing of the phone.
“Hello?”
“Hello, Mrs. Clane? This is Diana Hanson,” a voice said.
“Oh, hi,” Mrs. Clane said, a little surprised, after all, Jessie had said her parents wouldn’t mind if she stayed another night.
“Yes, I’m wondering, is Jessie still there?”
“Yes, they stayed up all night last night and woke up late this afternoon, and we went to the mall and the movies. I asked her if she should call her parents, and she said that wouldn’t be necessary.”
“Oh goodness,” Mrs. Hanson said. “I don’t know what to do with her lately. She’s always aggravated and angry, or screaming, and she never follows the rules or takes responsibility. She knows good and well she should have called! I don’t know what to do with her lately,” Mrs. Hanson repeated.
“That’s odd,” Mrs. Clane agreed. “She seems like a very responsible girl.”
“She always was, until lately. I think it has something to do with her brothers. They’re always gone, and they do get a lot of attention… But you wouldn’t believe the kind of attention she and Mack and Avery and Zoë get also. But I think that’s what it is. She feels left out, not really fitting in with Mack and Avery and Zoë, or with Ike and Tay and Zac. I think I’ll have to talk to her.”
“That sounds like a good plan. Would you like to come pick her up now??” Mrs. Hanson sighed.
“No, I guess I’ll wait till morning, if it’s not too much trouble for you.”
“Oh, no. Not at all!”
“Okay, then. I’ll see you tomorrow Anne.”
“Okay, Diana. You don’t worry too much.”
“Alright, bye.”
“Bye.” Click.
I hurried back to Angie’s room quietly before anyone could catch me. I couldn’t believe what I had just heard!
Seventeen
The next morning, Mrs. Clane woke us up at 9:00. She said my mom was here. Angie and I dragged ourselves out of bed. I got all of my stuff together and said goodbye and thank you to the Clanes, I climbed into the car, dreading the group that would be awaiting me. Surprisingly, I found only my mother in the driver’s seat.
“Climb up here,” she said, patting the passenger seat. I crawled through the seats and sat there and buckled up.
“Where is everyone?” I questioned after we had pulled into traffic.
“Well, let’s see,” she said. “I dropped them off at friends’ houses.” My brow furrowed.
“Why?” Was this a special day? I didn’t think so.
“You and me are going to spend all day together. No brothers or sisters.” I felt a smile creep on my lips.
“Really?”
“Really. Your father and I have been busy lately with your brothers and sisters. You’ve been a great sport.” I blushed. If only she knew.
“Not really,” I said quietly.
“Yeah you have. We haven’t been paying much attention to you and you’ve been great. So you and me are going to spend an entire day all alone-no brothers or sisters. Just us. Just the two of us.” She looked over at me. “Where to first? You wanna get some breakfast?” I nodded, grinning.
“Sure.”
We went to a local café for breakfast and then we went to the mall. We spent the entire morning shopping and browsing. We ate lunch at Chick-Fil-A. After that, we were sick of the mall and we went to Old Navy. We spent about and hour and a half there. We spent the rest of the afternoon shopping and having fun. By the time we got home after dinner, we were exhausted. The two of us curled up in my mom’s big bed and watched the movies we rented on the way home. We fell asleep on about the third movie. The next morning I woke up at around 7:30. No one else was up. I went on the back porch and stared at the sky, thinking about what a great family I had. It was going to be a great day.
The
End (Maybe…)